She is going to Shenzhen

One of my best girl friends is going to Shenzhen because her boyfriend is there. Last night we held a party for her in my house. We invited some of her and our friends and all of us had a nice night.

She will be very far from me from now on. Maybe we would not go out for shopping, walking or something like this together any more. She would not come here when she feels unhappy, neither would I. Although we can still keep in contact on the Internet or telephone, I still feel a little bit sad. She is one of few friends I can talk about anything with, and she is the only one whom I feel totally relaxed when I am with.

Anyway, things are always changing and even if the best of friends must part in the end (天下没有不散的宴席). I hope she will always be happy. I told her I would always be there when she needs me.

Some Thoughts

Sometimes I think this way and other times I think that way. I do not know why I am often like this. Maybe, there are some things I think I should do but I do not really like to do in my heart. In many cases, we cannot just live for ourselves, can we?

Last night I did not feel good because I confused and scared myself again and could not find it out. I tried to listen to the sound from my deep heart but I could not hear clearly. I realized that I do not really understand myself sometimes. My God, it is so bad. I admit that sometimes I made myself so busy that I forgot to listen to sounds from my heart. However, when I remembered, I could not hear clearly.

I still kept thinking about it when I got up this morning. At the same time, there were so many house things to do and I could not concentrate on them that I was almost late for work. I told my boyfriend I might not have breakfast at home because I did not think I had enough time. He was not happy and wanted to help me when I was washing my hair. I told him I did not think it was not faster to do it with his help than by myself, but he insisted, then I was urgent and felt a little bit impatient. But I still said to him softly and accepted his help. He was just trying to help and I could not frustrate him. Finally, I had breakfast at home and made him happy ( anyway he prepared for me.)

Anyway, I feel happy because my boyfriend is kind to me and I am trying my best to be kind to him.

元宵节

　　今天是阴历正月十五，是中国传统的元宵节，家家都要吃元宵，晚上到处都在放烟花，很漂亮，有些地方甚至可以赏花灯。

　　今天早上老公让我买些元宵，可是因为昨天晚上有些饭没吃完，后来就没买元宵，而是把饭吃了。后来想着晚上再买元宵，可下午又有个朋友叫我陪她去看病，然后又一起吃晚饭，晚上回到家里都７点多了。问素仙他们两个要不要吃，如果吃的话我再去买。可他们两个都不想吃，我也不想吃，看来今年的元宵是不吃了。。。。。。

　　今天晚上我有点生气，因为老公最近一直忙于工作，每天早上很早就起来，晚上一直到很晚才睡，我虽然有意见，却不好说什么。再说，我也不想给他太多压力，不想让他觉得我不理解他，毕竟，他也很不容易。可是今天晚上我却非常生气，不仅因为今天是星期天，他还是一直在工作，还因为今天毕竟也是一个节日，再怎么说也不该工作到太迟，我想他陪我，可是他说他一时抽不出时间，我只好作罢。可是，心里越想越生气，可是又不好冲他发火，我怕会吵架，只好到网上找我的好朋友聊了聊，发泄一下。再听几首欢快的音乐，心里感觉好多了。

　　唉，生活总是不完美的，痛苦总是多于幸福。无论如何，努力过得开心一些才好。希望明天又是开心的一天！